The internet is a very dangerous thing, and althought bebo/facebook/myspace pages enable us to have a noosey through people's profiles it can also deliever things to your attention that you'd rather not know. Whilst enjoying my weekly wander through my friends pages, I came across colin's new girlfirneds page, and saw photos of them together. Although I am over him as much as I can be, and wouldn't actualy want to get back together, it made me crumble. I had a weak moment and contacted him, this contact was not welcomed and I ended up feeling comletely ridiculous and desperate.
However, as my friend put it, this is perhaps whats I needed. It was the very final chapter in the book of why I can do better than Colin. Irt gave me the push I needed.
Lately I've been feeling like I don't know if I'l ever really feel the way I did with Colin again. I know I'm young, but every guy I've been with since, theres just been no chemistry there, and these guys (only two!)are hotties!
I was out at the weekend, and was really enjoying myself, and to my surprise as everyone left it was just me and the guy I work with left (the one I went home with only a month ago). I didn't expect anything to happen, but once again we ended up spending the whole night talking, and dancing and I went back to his. This time was different though, this time it wasn't just about sex, it felt like we really clicked. And after a great night, we spend hours the next morning just tlaking, about everything. It was really nice and made me think - what if there is something here?
Since colin, I've not wanted to date anyone, I've just enjoyed being on my own. I've had absolutly no desire to date anyone either. But with petrelli (thats my code name for him at work), it feels right. Its pretty hard to explain I guess. He's a lot older than Colin, he's open minded and ambititous, and sweet. I found it surprising how comfortable I felt with him. But I don't want him to think that just because we've slept together he has to form a relationship with me, I just want to spend mroe time with him, and from the vides I got that morning, I think he does too?
Only time will tell...
