I did something stupid last night, I got carried away with the openness me and 'thunder boy' have and let too much spill. I mean really personal stuff that I shouldn't tell anyone, things that I haven't really gone over properly in my own head. I told him about my extreme highs and lows, and my paranoia. It was like a salesman trying to sell something and pointing out all the reasons why you SHOULDN'T buy his product. How the hell could he still be interested?! On one hand, it's nice that I feel comfortable enough with him to shares these personal thoughts, but it is too much to reveal, and too soon?

I feel like I keep coming back to the same point with every boy, I let them see too much. I don't like what comes out when I feel comfortable enough with someone to do this, its almost not the person they first met. Well, it is, but more emphasised.

The sweet thing was that when I spilt these things to him, after worrying I'd said too much and possibly scared him off, his reply wasn't the 'whatever' I'm used to getting. Not many people can handle me, ' i can handle you' he replied. He knows exactly how to deal with a situation when I feel myself sliping into a bad mood, and if I feel upset about something he picks up on it. And instead of feeding it, he just puts up with it, he helps me. I've never met anyone like this, I can't believe my luck.

Don't get me wrong, theres still a faaaaar way to go, but I like how things are progressing. We've even organied a wee trip away for the weekend in a couple of weeks, I can't wait!